Australian Ana: Thin Business Woman?? I'm Getting Closer

Friday, February 25, 2011

Thin Business Woman?? I'm Getting Closer

Happy Friday first off, all I can say is THANK FUCK!!!

So I am getting skinnier, with my greatest accomplishment this week being that my thighs no longer rub when I walk, there is a prominent gap, and let me just say that I am so proud of myself at the moment. It is 7:10am AEDST here and I have been up for almost an hour so I can be at work at 8am and I would have been in earlier but the security company doesnt open the gates until 8am :(

I am weighing in at around 58kg, and a size AU8-10 depending on where I shop. I think this progress is reasonable. I have lost 8kg so far and I have a lot more energy than I used to. I can liquid fast for 2-3 days as long as I allow myself my daily Boost Juice (a fruit juice bar that is all natural and delicious, and 99% fat free). To be honest the sight of food digusts me, I smell food and I feel queezy right now, I don't want it anywhere near me. I think the only naughty I have had in the last couple of days was a Twix bar which I threw up anyway.

My stupid phone won't let me upload photo's onto my computer so I cant show you lovely ladies how awesome I look at this second, but when my camera charges up again I will take a pic and post it (will prob be tonight after work).
xox

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My Story

The Basics: I'm a 21 year old living in Australia trying to balance a 50 hour working week, friends, a boyfriend, saving for a house, family and somewhere in there sleep and exercise.

Current weight (14/12/2011) 58kg
Highest Weight (Jan 2011) 69kg
Lowest Weight (March 2006) 43kg
Goal Weight 50kg (or less)

So I have had to let myself go, to a weight that is considered by society as "healthy" However this was not by choice. I have been sedated, I have been nourished by an IV bag, force fed, hypnotised into being hungry, almost everything my doctor could think of to get me to gain weight against my will.

By medical terms I'm not anorexic anymore, but that doesn't mean I'm not apart of the pro-ana movement. I used to be anorexic weighing 44kg and dropping, and one day really soon I will be back to my tiny frame and falling out of my size 6 pants rather than squeezing into my size 8's.

I firmly believe that this illness is a lifestyle, not one we choose but on that chooses us. I don't enjoy spending hours in front of mirrors crying, starving myself until I fall off my chair at work, or hiding away at meal time so I don't get tempted to eat a bit of my mums home made German cooking, but Ana has chosen for me to live this life and I will document it here and hopefully have all your support along the way.