Australian Ana: Re-Evaluation is Required

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Re-Evaluation is Required

So I believe it is time to evaluate where I am at the moment because it would seem I am not going anywhere. These are my current statistics.
Current Weight: 58kg
Height: 170cm
Size: AU8-10
HW: 68kg
GW: 55kg
UGW: 52kg
Goal size: AU6-8

So after crashing my car I am lacking transport until I can hook myself up with some extra cash (good luck to me on that one) so I can put a deposit on a new Toyota Yaris, considering the hot pink!! Until then its either get on my bike or walk, both options will be burning off the kg's as at the moment I feel disgusting, I cry pretty much everytime I look in the mirror. Although i deserve to be fat, I ate 2 tim tams and a small bowl of chicken flavoured crisps today (the horror!!). Another bonus of the whole no car scenario is that I can drive into town to buy gross food so I have to pack lunch, which with my skill of lunch making will consist of diet soda and DIET SODA!!! I swear to Christ if I am not 2kg lighter in the next 2 or 3 weeks I am going to loose my shit because I wont be eating and I have to ride my bike everywhere.

I cant go to gym this week, due to the fact that my back is all twisted and bruised from the accident, and my whip lash was pretty bad so my neck and shoulders also hurt, but next week I intend on finishing work at 5:30pm as I do, ride up to gym (which thank christ is only a 10 minute ride away) and hit up that cross trainer and weights. My arms and abs need some serious work if I am going to fit my big butt into a tiny little party dress in 3 and a half months time for my 21st.

Wish me luck, and send me through any thinspo you can get with skinny business women!!

xoxo

2 comments:

Harlow B said...: ohmygoodness, I'm glad you are (fairly) ok from your accident. the first sentence that says you crashed your car was frightening.

Super smart taking a week off to heal from whiplash and everything else. Exercising while having injuries/your body is weak would probably lead to more injury.

I hope things work out with the car... my car is dying it's been in the shop THREE times the past 2 weeks but I don't want to cough up cash for a new one. Cars, If we didn't have snow 24/7 in Canada I'd bike everywhere!

~ H; March 7, 2011 at 3:10 AM
Anonymous said...: amazing; March 8, 2011 at 11:31 PM

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My Story

The Basics: I'm a 21 year old living in Australia trying to balance a 50 hour working week, friends, a boyfriend, saving for a house, family and somewhere in there sleep and exercise.

Current weight (14/12/2011) 58kg
Highest Weight (Jan 2011) 69kg
Lowest Weight (March 2006) 43kg
Goal Weight 50kg (or less)

So I have had to let myself go, to a weight that is considered by society as "healthy" However this was not by choice. I have been sedated, I have been nourished by an IV bag, force fed, hypnotised into being hungry, almost everything my doctor could think of to get me to gain weight against my will.

By medical terms I'm not anorexic anymore, but that doesn't mean I'm not apart of the pro-ana movement. I used to be anorexic weighing 44kg and dropping, and one day really soon I will be back to my tiny frame and falling out of my size 6 pants rather than squeezing into my size 8's.

I firmly believe that this illness is a lifestyle, not one we choose but on that chooses us. I don't enjoy spending hours in front of mirrors crying, starving myself until I fall off my chair at work, or hiding away at meal time so I don't get tempted to eat a bit of my mums home made German cooking, but Ana has chosen for me to live this life and I will document it here and hopefully have all your support along the way.