Socialising comes at a cost

Yet again here I am, it's Saturday, which means having lunch with the girls before my bestie B goes to New Zealand for a few weeks. I have no idea where lunch is but I have that sinking feeling that it is going to be somewhere high in calories.

Another bummer is G is coming, and this young lady thinks I am a whore, for absolutely no reason what so ever, I convinced myself that it is because I have turned my life around in the last 4 months with loosing 9kg, getting a brilliant job and being mostly happy where as she is still 65kg, in a job she hates and had to settle for my sloppy seconds when it comes to boys (he is a dick so she can have him). So this is going to be awkward for everyone involved because lucky for me, others are starting to see that she is a miserable little bitch who enjoys nothing more than a good ol' back stabbing!!

I wish I cared less, but I wanna look rocking for this lunch because I came to discover last night, whilst having a cocktail with my 2 girls L&R that I am only merely 2-3kg away from being the same weight as them, which for me is a massive accomplishment coz these girls are stunning!! But I will be skinnier, I will be 3kg skinnier than them by the time of my birthday, I just know it!! But I wanna look good to throw in G's face that I am no longer the same weight as her (my HW was the same as her, which is foul) and that I can now wear my size 9 jeans insteand of sqeezing into my size 12 jeans. I don't care if that makes me a bitch, she is not a nice person, has said some horrible things about me, and instead of being a bitch, I'm going to be a skinny bitch (well skinny compared to her size 14 ass).

I decided to go with some denim shorts, a grey tee with a pale grey/white man-style shirt over the top.. Very casual but makes me legs look awesome and my olive skin looks hot!!

Long weekend this weekend in Victoria, and I am the only one in my household that gets the day off, so Monday is a fitness day for me :) I'm not allowed to drive yet so I have to stay close to home, but I plan on starting my day with some yoga and then going for a really nice long walk for an hour or so. My eating in the last week has been pretty good, I burn off everything I put into my body, and then a little more. This week's aim is to consume under 1000 calories a day, walk everyday after work (I havent got time before) and at plenty of fruit and vegetables. I have groceries tomorrow so I need to buy lots of healthy treats for my desk, because that is where I tend to snack, although having my sugar free gum staring at me on my desk has helped, because whenever I get hungry I just have gum instead. I don't even have to think about it anymore, I just put gum in my mouth instead of eating, or go get a diet soda/cup of tea.

I need to do some more fasting, I haven't done a good fast in so long. Or a good diet pill, Australia is so strict on what is put on the market and most of it is either pure caffeine or all natural, and to be put on the goof stuff your BMI has to be above 27 (something I could not tolerate). And I hate the "wieght loss shakes" they taste like ass and I refuse to go there, I'll stick to trying to find a diet pill that wont send my HR through the roof with all the caffeine. Having such a usy schedule does not help with fasting, with constant meeting with clients and an admin office full of 'working mums' that insist I try everything they bring in, fasting is virtually impossible during the week, and on weekends socialising comes at a cost, and sadly the cost is food, lunch and dinner dates, cocktails. I do try my very best to eat/drink low calorie drinks and ALWAYS suggest healthy places to eat, but hanging with the girls means for them that they get to be naughty, where as naughty isn't an option for me if I want to be 6kg lighter by my 21st birthday.

Oh well, I will do my best to avoid high calorie foods, and if they go somewhere naughty I might just have to order a coffee/chai tea so I don't have to throw away all my hard work.
xox