Exciting

I hit 57kg/125lb today, very excited! One kilogram closer to my goal, and I can now see the changes, everywhere but my freakin thighs that still are quite larger than I would like. I have been eating very little lately mostly because if I eat anything with dairy, or bigger than my small sized plate I am curled up in foetal position because my stomach can't handle any more food/dairy. Another thing I noticed was when mum took me shopping yesterday and I tried on a size 8 shirt, and it is still loose fitting, and I am down to a size 10 in the bottoms, but it wont be long before I am back in a size 8 there either.

So I signed the papers for my new job today as well, not a lot of money (about AU$480 a week after tax) but while I'm still living at home it will definitly suffice my needs to pay of my credit card, gym membership and phone bill each month.

So it is the week before my model comp, and I'm starting to freak because there is no more food after tomorrow, just tea and water for 3 whole days and it's the longest fast I have had since I was about 15 years old. I picked out my outfits today, this amazing stripey bikini that makes my boobs look amazing and then a hot pink cocktail dress. I've been practicing wearing my stilleto heels everyday, because my biggest fear is falling on my face in my cocktail dres revealling my bum, Jennifer Hawkins style, who just happens to be my idol, she is so so beautiful!!

Looking forward to  big workout for the next two days, running in the morning then aerobics/wii fit in the afternoon. I'm looking forward to this 3 day fast, but not looking forward the the binge afterwards, as I can see myself binging a little too hard after the competition, although hopefully my stomach may have shrunk further making a binge impossible without purging.