Learning to sleep in the bed i made

I made mychoice for a career
I want to be a skinny success
To be more concerned about clientele
But there is something I must confess...

I get lonely being the last single girl,
But the only one with a career
Observing girlfriends on double dates
My attendance the third wheel

It can be hard choosing Ana over dinner parties, because I have to go to the gym.
The art of starvation is consuming.
Counting calories and weight watching ,
Numbers eating away at me,
Until I can no longer leave my house.

But these are the choices I made,
And they will work for me.
Give me time & encouragement,
And I will have everything I want,
Even if it isn't what others want me to have.

Love will find me when im ready,
I will be skinny when I deserve it,
Success will come once I've worked for it.



Okay now that I have got all my wisdom out here is the real crap. I feel stronger everyday, that I can come back from the disgrace I was 10 weeks agowhen I was 66kg, although I was hoping to be at a lower weight than I am right now, I am getting closer. Only 8kg to go now, and even less once my period finishes and my bloating leaves.

This weeks task is to:
A, Loose 2-3kg after de-bloating
B, find a product to help me burn fat
C, exercise everyday

These goals I believe to be realistic, with some hard work, ecspecially working around a business trip on Tuesday :(

Some good news though, not only did I walk past the chocolate and crisp ailses without getting any snacks but I fit in my size AU10 jeans and can actually do them up. Still have a little muffin top, but nothing some aerobics won't burn off, ecspecially now that I can afford to go back to gym =D I still want my cross trainer but it won't fit in my room so idk what im going to do there.

must be off to bed or I'll never get up @ 6am for a walk.
Xoxo