It's all a process dear..

Calorie intake: ~700 calories
Calorie output: 650 calories
Total: 50 calories

I am trying very hard to cut down my diet to the bare minimum of calories that I need to function normally right now. I have researched all sorts of tricks and tips to help me cut out calories, and find where I am having troubles in my diet so I can fix them. And I have found that I need to take more control over what is bought at the supermarket, or better yet buy my own snacks (rice crackers a must as I am finding myself craving crisps atm).

I have my eyes on a pair of size 8 jeans and I really wanna buy them to wear to Melbourne on the weekend at the footy (my first footy match at that so very excited). Being bloated as fuck from my period is not helping me and I don't think I'll be wearing them, and I refuse to buy a size 9. Maybe I'll go back next week and buy them once I'm not bloated and gross. I feel quite disgusting, I look like I'm about 4 months pregnant and none of my work shirts fit me so I am wearing flowy dresses with ankle boots and such to work. Bring on the days where I no longer menstruate... approx 10kg to go. I hate that my goal is so far away, but it is my own fault, I chose food over Ana for a while there... But let's face it, Ana rocks the shit out of tim tams and chicken flavoured crisps.

I do plan on having the rest of the week to start preparing for my boot camp, I need to be at the gym 4 days a week, drinking only tea, water and boost juice, I also need to fit in smaller jeans for winter, coz fat people can't pull off layers, skinny people look kinda cool with layers, cardis and scarves and BOOTS!! I have a boot addiction this season, All I am missing is a nice leather pair of boots. I think I might give up solids for a while, which can be annoying coz I feel like I am peeing every 20 minutes, but solid foods seem to be my enemy at the moment. At worst I might have some rice crackers with some soup of whatever. Whatever it takes, I will fit in a size 8 within 3 weeks.

So the research continues to make these calories dissapear, along with my love handles....
xox