Australian Ana: business trip

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

business trip

Fuck you Toyota business trip!! Just come from a business dinner and it was a 3 course meal... Vomit!!

No idea what I weigh because motel rooms don't generally have scales. Home tomorrow thank Christ so I'll weigh myself then. Tomorrow I have morning tea and lunch, both I do plan on weaselling my way out of.. Moments like these make me wish I smoked, but it is disgusting and all sorts of health risks, and my health is crappy all by itself thank you very much

Exercise has been going well, walking as much as possible, but yet again this fucking business trip is killing me having to drive from center to center. Looking forward to going home to taking Lilly for a run in the fresh country air as I hate the City, it makes my asthma flare up.

So for the rest of the week I need to be really good, otherwise I'm goig to be back in the 60's and I've worked so hard to loose this weight. Running Thursday and Sunday plus shopping Thursday night, which means 2 or so hours lugging shopping around with my girlfriends, and on Saturday night my fave workout... Dancing at my favourite nightclub all night >_<

Okay lets hope I can finish the week on a better note than I have started.
Xoxo

1 comment:

Nicole said...: Dancing is the best work out everrrr! haha. Good luck with the rest of your week :); February 25, 2011 at 6:19 AM

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My Story

The Basics: I'm a 21 year old living in Australia trying to balance a 50 hour working week, friends, a boyfriend, saving for a house, family and somewhere in there sleep and exercise.

Current weight (14/12/2011) 58kg
Highest Weight (Jan 2011) 69kg
Lowest Weight (March 2006) 43kg
Goal Weight 50kg (or less)

So I have had to let myself go, to a weight that is considered by society as "healthy" However this was not by choice. I have been sedated, I have been nourished by an IV bag, force fed, hypnotised into being hungry, almost everything my doctor could think of to get me to gain weight against my will.

By medical terms I'm not anorexic anymore, but that doesn't mean I'm not apart of the pro-ana movement. I used to be anorexic weighing 44kg and dropping, and one day really soon I will be back to my tiny frame and falling out of my size 6 pants rather than squeezing into my size 8's.

I firmly believe that this illness is a lifestyle, not one we choose but on that chooses us. I don't enjoy spending hours in front of mirrors crying, starving myself until I fall off my chair at work, or hiding away at meal time so I don't get tempted to eat a bit of my mums home made German cooking, but Ana has chosen for me to live this life and I will document it here and hopefully have all your support along the way.