Busy times!

Weighed in at 60kg today

I did promise Nicole (Hey pretty!!) a picture, but I feel a little fat today after a pasta dinner. I will do it soon I promise!

I have had a busy few days so I havent been able to post anything in a few days, but it started on Friday afternoon when I met up with the of the winners of the model competition I was MEANT to compete in on Saturday, which was very daunting, they were all about 2 inches taller than me and size 6 & 8 (I am between 8 & 10 depending on clothes). This lead me to pull out of the competition if pure fear and I hybernated for the entire weekend. This gave me wayyy too much time to think, and this is my rant:

I am the only girl out of my group that has not got a boyfriend, yet I am the only one who has travelled, gone to university and had I have had several interesting jobs that have given me numerous opportunities compared to my girlfriends who have only had one or two jobs in their entire lives, barely leave the state (we live on the border of Victoria and New South Whales) and most of which BARELY passed year 12. The only difference is that they are size AUS6-8 and beautiful, with long skinny legs and arms and barely an ounce of fat on them, and the one girl that is a size AUS12 is not only stupid and boring, she has  the hottest boyfriend of them all!!

Where is the justice in this world?

Although I am not beautiful like my friends, I'm definitly not ugly, I am smart, well travelled, funny, and you can have a conversation without talking about fake tans and what celebs are up to. But because I am not a size 6 (yet) guys don't want to talk to me!!

All this anger is inspiring though, it makes me want to loose this weight so much, I have been doing my interval training, hill climbing, sit ups and push ups. With old fashioned low calorie intake, rigorours exercise and with time I will be skinny and beautiful like my girlfriends, but I will have intelligence, humour and experience on my side.

My plan of attack is regression, to a diet I used to do when I was about 14-15 years old. I call it the milkshake diet. For breakfast I have a milkshake consisting of 250mL skim milk, 2 small scoops of low fat ice cream and whatever topping you like (it equals about 200 calories per milkshake) and then a small high protein dinner. You are allowed water/tea/coffee/diet soda inbetween meals. This works for me not only because I only consume about 900 calories but I am lactose sesnitive so I end up sitting on the toilet and it leaves my body (and things I think I ate years ago) naturally.

Okay now that my rant is over...

Today I started my job, and it was amazing, everyone is so lovely and I can see myself loving this job once I learn to do it. I am so busy that I barely have time to eat during the day, which is amazing and then I got home and a small binge on some pasta and creamy sauce, but later I will go for a small walk.