Progress has lead to lonliness

I have had a mostly good week, under 1000 calories everyday and with a few of those days being under 500 :) My weight is a bit unreliable this week as I have had my monthly visitor but hopefully once the bloating stops I will be sitting at the 56kg mark.

Emotionally my week has been a disaster. I feel rather alone at the moment, my friends do not understand the obssesion I have with counting calories, weighing myself twice a day and not eating for days if my wieght climbs. My lonliness was brought up last night at a family friends house, where their son and his gf and son, and when I referred to Lilly as my daughter (lilly being a 10 month old jack russell) they both stopped and stared, and the son muttered (as a joke) that I was one of those lonely people who have a pet for a child. That just about killed me inside, I wanted to jump off the couch and slap him, but I sat there, giggled with the rest of them and moved to a different topic.

My emotional state is not helped by all the pain I am in. I have strapping from my neck to just above my butt to hold my back in place, my headache has now been going for over a week and I spend most my time with a heat pack on my shoulder or neck, wanting to cry. Physio is working, and my mobility is getting better but it is going to take a few months before my arms start moving normally and just to top it all off, I'm not allowed to do nailcan, the 13km fun run I have been training for since the end of Jan for.

This weekend I think I might slum it at home, do some light chores (there is still a lot of things I can't do) and have a two day fast, which is easy coz I'm hurting so much I don't want to eat anyway.
xox