End of the day and I still only weigh 57kg with my clothes on!! I havent eaten in 3 days, and although I am hungry I feel soooooo good :) Gave a try yesterday of stock cubes and water, didn't end well, vomitting and crapping about 4 hours later, not to mention it didn't tast great, kinda like flavoured salt water. I live off barely 300 calories a day whilst burning approx 1000+ calories every day (my job is pretty physical). I plan on having a small dinner tonight, only because I feel a bit dizzy, but then I won't eat again until Monday.
I love the feeling of loose clothing, my size 8 singlet that I wore to work swims on me, as does my size 10 business pants. Yet no one at work has noticed that i don't eat except maybe my receptionist only because me and her have been friends since high school (and are still super close) so she notices these things. I think mum is getting worried that I am loosing way too much weight but I don't really care.. I love skinny!!
What I don't love however is the weekend. DAMN YOU SOCIAL LIFE!! I have a girl's night out tomorrow with a group of girls that I wouldn't normally go with but my friends are all bitching and backstabbing at the moment so I don't feel like that enviroment at the moment (with my life detox and all.. But more on that later). They are all single (thank Christ) and love partying just as much as I do :) I don't plan on drinking but I will have a ball dancing and flirting with cute guys all the same! And unlike many of my friends, they notice when I look skinny and compliment me saying how awesome I look (and honestly, who doesn't love a compliment every now and again)
Okay well back to my life detox, it is going well, I have continued deleting many people off facebook, my room is almost finished and I will start yoga in four weeks (to detox my mind). I am also giving myself a complete make over, starting with going back to blonde, now that I can afford the $100 a month to maintain it! I also plan on dressing my age, after a comment from a gf of mine saying I dress a bit like a soccer mum, which I won't deny mostly because I love being comfy on the weekends after spending all week in a suit. She is going to take me to Melbourne where will shop til we drop with some 'trendy' clothes for me to wear on the weekends rather than my 'bogan' stuff. I think I might start spending less time with my current group of friends as well for the moment, they are poisoning my life with the negativity, and don't get me wrong I love them all dearly, but I can't be around that crap when I am trying to detox. I also think i might give up meat, mostly due to hearing the sounds of pigs in a truck on their way to the slaughter house that is about 2km from my work. This sound will haunt me for a very long time to come.
Okay off to dinner with my aunt and uncle, might stick to salad and some carbs (bread maybe) as I need some strength to go for a nice looooong walk tomorrow to wear out my dog.
Think skinny thoughts
xox
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